First time ? Not really . . there was Santi!!!

19 March 2007. I felt sadness, rejection. I presumed Yani came to my pad earlier to have some fun. I asked him directly what are his expectations, "wala lang" (just nothing). He commented on the unkept mess my pad and demanded that he be given a seat so he coud sit, a place to put his jacket - and proceeded to sit on my computer chair and placed his jacket on the seat.


Yes, my pad is very much unkept. I have been depressed due to a family problem, business closure, office stress, and even relationship problems. Same reason I have not been as active sexually as I want to be. Yes, there is only one chair in my small pad - so when guests arrived, I immediately guide them to my day bed where they can sit and watch male porn. This way, idle chitchat is minimized. And of course, presumably, things are easily guided to having fun once the lights are off and the male porn have suggested what can be done in that small room.


But what is most distracting was the jacket label - that is of a Radio/TV Broadcasting network. Although it is my place, my pad, "SETUP" was foremost on my mind. I dont want to be shown on television as another expose or something. I asked that we talked outside my pad instead, and there, given the benefit of the doubt, I talked to a "new friend". He was very secretive and unsure of his answers so in the end, we parted ways. He seems dejected, I might be wrong but better to be safe than sorry.


I do not like to reject anyone for I do not like to be rejected myself. Thus, the incident made me restless and meditative... . . . but hmmmm.. come to think of it Yani came from Mandaluyong to Pasay, but Santi came from Novaliches to Pasay - and since Santi was drunk, we sent him home too. We asked Santi to come back later of which he had sex already with Ernz and Gary!! I guess if things are meant to happen, it will happen.

So in reminiscing, found some more pictures of the fun then with Santi. Enjoy! Bottomline, sex is fun, but dont let lust rule intuition - if you are uncomfortable, then don't go for it.