My first suck.... at being 40!!!

26 October 2006. I turned 40!!! And just like previous birthdays I have the blues. A friend even mentioned that it is not just natal depression, but perhaps mid life crisis! Oh dear!! Just like previous years, I kept to myself, kept to my room, just stayed on my bed!

Then around 8, I have a misscall! Hmmm, I wonder who the caller is. I sent a txt "name pls?". He txted Chris and he was asking if we could meet and get to know one another. Duhhh.... another sex eyeball? When my pad is a total mess? I spent the morning looking for a missing statement of account!! On the other hand, it would be nice to have a dinner with a total stranger, and on my 40th birthday! I agreed thinking of Glorietta, so one ride we can have a romp in my bed. He said it was too far... he wants to meet in Baclaran.. duhh? Dinner in Baclaran? I am trying to spring out of my depression and to dine out - and here he is.... saan kami bangketa? Naman!!! We compromise to meet at Mall of Asia, at the globe.

Well, I took a bath and then a taxi. He said he would be wearing a black shirt. I went straight outside Globe Telecom booth. There was a short guy, fair complexion, black polo. I called him up, he said he is waiting at the main entrance!! He changed the venue, I was thinking it might be a frank or I might end up on a one way eye ball. It turns out, he was not talking about Globe Telecoms but the globe infront of the Mall of Asia!!!

I walked, taking my time. And there, I saw him. He is a short guy, slim, smooth, brown complexion. He has his appeal. He looked to be young, most probably in his early 20s. I asked him his age.

"am 19."

I was speechless, personally I dont date guys this young. Should I create an excuse and scram? Would I have a dinner alone? Smile and bear it.